June 9, 2010 7:36 am
Jamie is in VA all week for work and I’m playing the part of the single mom. So far, I’ve only come close to murdering the kids a couple of times but man, these kids are tough. They’ve been attacking each other constantly and I can’t even prepare a meal without having to stop and separate them several times. The source of Graham’s behavior finally revealed itself in the wee hours last night; another ear infection. This will be the fourth in the past two months and I’m pretty sure a set of shiny new ear tubes will be in our future. Elliot is hopped up on dye from chewing on a marker so she’s been biting and hitting and generally unpleasant to be around. When they’re not fighting, they’re teaming up on me so at least there’s some togetherness going on.
Having to do it all with Jamie gone has made me realize how bogged down and tethered I really am. Not just with the daily grind, to technology as well. Before I went to bed last night, I plugged in the baby monitor, dog’s shock collar, set the alarm, put the home phone on it’s docking station, plugged in the laptop, put the ceiling fan and TV remote out of reach for the morning and unplugged my cell phone to take with me before I went to sleep on the mat on the floor in the kid’s room. Yes, one of us is still crashing in their room every night to minimize the wake ups. And it’s getting old. While I was laying there waiting for the back pain to set in, I wondered when I became so damn dependent on things? It’s a bit ridiculous.
The hustle and bustle of daily life have also kept me away from the blogosphere. It happens, but I find myself walking around with Google Reader guilt, sad to be so far behind and melancholy because I haven’t posted in weeks. But life is busy, kids are hard and that’s the way it goes. I blog when I have time and I will catch up someday. The kids need to be fed, there’s swimming to do (that part, I love), the dishes aren’t going to do themselves. I plan on unplugging myself from the world for a little bit, at least as much as I can. To let go of the guilt for not being 100% all of the time and kick back and enjoy things. To survive the rest of the week until Jamie gets home to back me up. In the meantime, wish me luck with these hooligans.