Welcome to week 18 of club HASAY! Not sure what HASAY is? Read all about it here. Also, this will be my weekly submission for this week’s Spin Cycle. I’m doubling up today since I thought that this week’s Spin Cycle topic (change) was pretty relevant to today’s post.

This week’s awesome guest poster is none other than… wait for it… ME. I actually didn’t get around to asking anybody to guest post and remembered it over the weekend so I said screw it and you get to read all about my HASAY journey instead. HASAY participants: Remember to enter your URL in Mr Linky below if you’ve posted a HASAY update this week.

Do you remember the speech your parents used to give you when they said they were “disappointed in you”? If you halfway respected your parents, those words stung. Lately, HASAY has been creating a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. This feeling is not only because of my personal HASAY failure, but because of the downfall of the group as a whole. I’m disappointed in us. (*Note: There are several people who are still on board with the HASAY plan and I would like to say how proud I am of you and that you should probably stop reading after this paragraph. One of you is even running on an injured foot. You guys rock and you look smokin’!)

I love being referred to as the “fearless HASAY leader”, but my leadership hasn’t produced the results I had hoped for. What happened to the loads of enthusiasm we had in the beginning? It has dwindled down to a half hearted “woo”. Less than half the thirty-two current participants are still gung ho and the other ones haven’t even checked in with us in awhile. I’m ashamed to admit that I’m among the unenthused.

I need change. Something to motivate me into submission. I’m starting this week with a challenge to all of you HASAYers out there. Shit or get off the pot. You signed up for this club because you needed a swift kick in the ass. Here’s your kick. WHAM! Man, your ass feels squishy. That squishy ass is exactly why you need to get with the program. This isn’t just another boring lecture, I’m reaching around and kicking myself in the ass too. Not only is my ass squishy, but my stomach and arms and thighs and well, basically every inch of me screams FATASS (pronounced Fuh-Tass). I know it and I don’t like it. I’ve been using my life and my kids and anything else I can as an excuse and it ends here. I mean it this time.

I’m going to lay it all out on the line for you here. I’m fat. I was borderline fat for several years and then pumping out two kids in two years put me over the top. When I go shopping, I almost always end up in tears or close to it. It’s pathetic. When I look for pictures of me with my kids, I can only find a few. It’s because I intentionally avoid cameras because I hate the outcome. That’s not fair to my kids to deprive them of pictures with their mom. I’m going to do something about it. I plan on making myself the person I want to be, instead of the person I ended up being.

I’m having breast reduction surgery sometime this summer. It’s not something I’ve blogged about before but it’s one of the things on the forefront of my mind. In order to produce the desired results, I need to lose a lot of weight before then. I’ve known this for awhile but again, excuses excuses. It’s almost the end of February and I haven’t done jack shit to get myself in shape. My new plan is to use the Wii Fit every day and to do the 30 Day Shred at least three times a week. This will take every ounce of energy I have and will really test my willpower. I can’t exercise while the kids are awake so it will also take a chunk of my spare time. I have to learn to be ok with that. I HAVE to.

I know I can do this by myself, but I don’t want to. I want you guys (those of you who signed up) to do it with with me. I want us to all be happy with ourselves and glad that we busted our asses. I want to leave the disappointment behind and instead, be beaming with pride. Jamie told me that this post was a bit harsh and that I shouldn’t post it. I agree, it was harsh but isn’t that what you asked for from your fearless leader? Are you guys still with me? Don’t be a NAYSAYER, be a HASAYer.


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  1. K

    I think this is a great, brave post. Good luck and I really hope you reach your goals. A woman I know just recently had a reduction surgery and she is really happy with the results.

    Ks last blog post..A Bang-ing Weekend

  2. jen

    thanks. i know i needed that.
    ok mamahasay … i’m listening.

    jens last blog post..dear kitty.

  3. Michele

    I didn’t join HASAY but I follow you religiously. You guys have inspired me to really watch what I eat (I’m all about portion control. Feels less like dieting that way). You can DO IT!!!

    Micheles last blog post..Meatless Monday – Irish Balls

  4. FoN

    Okay, that was perfect. I have ‘Eye of the Tiger’ playing in my head now and it’s ON!

    You probably shouldn’t read my post. I worked out a lot this week and have sweet fa to show for it. I blame the ladies night out booze. Booze will get you every time.

    You ROCK and can totally do this.

    FoNs last blog post..Fat Chick vs. Food – Week 8

  5. Michelle

    Well, my ass is sore and my motivation is ON! If you can do the Wii Fit EVERY day and the shred 3x/week, heck, I can get to the gym more than once a week.
    No more halfway.. WOOT!

    Michelles last blog post..Just Another HASAY Monday

  6. Sprite's Keeper

    Well, you SAID “Shit or get off the pot.”
    I choose “Shit”.
    (I wrote “shit” three times.) (Make that four.)
    You’re linked!

    Sprite’s Keepers last blog post..Spin Cycle: It’s All About Change

  7. Keely

    Spirit Training, here I come!

    We can do this.

    Keelys last blog post..I may even invest in a black leather trenchcoat

  8. Stacy (the Random Cool Chick)

    WooHoo! Good for you! I’m not a HASAYer, but I follow a lot of your members – including you, of course! 😉 I could probably use a good swift kick to the butt, too! 😉 I’m part of the WiiFit Mommies, so you using the WiiFit every day really will make a difference…adding the shred 3 times a week? You’re gonna ROCK! 🙂

    I’ll be over here cheering you on! 🙂

    Stacy (the Random Cool Chick)s last blog post..Not Me! Monday

  9. Pseudo

    I thought I was signing in to comment, but I think I signed up for HAYSAY….and since work has gotten me competely beind my writing and blogging goals, I imagine I’d be horrible at keeping to anything else added on.

    But I do need to lose weight and stay healthy. I’m nearing my three year mark of being a cancer survivor. I walk a lot. Dance around the living room. I try to eat macrobiotic and organic.

    Pseudos last blog post..Conversation with my daughter last night…

  10. Beth

    Just pinched my butt, and yes….squishy! I’m with you and will worker harder, too.

    Beths last blog post..129 and Holding

  11. Lydia @ On The Verge

    You rock!! You can do it!!!

    Lydia @ On The Verges last blog post..Not Me Monday

  12. bex

    Whoo hoo! way to go girl! as a (former) boot camp instructor i can tell you from experience with these things that being ‘nice’ only goes so far. even with yourself. especially with yourself. let me know if there is anything i can do to help you hasayers. would you like an exercise challenge? one per week – month – or not at all? just want to help keep or restore your momentum.

    (i bought the shredder out of curiosity – wow!)

    bexs last blog post..Spin Cycle: Change Takes Change to Change

  13. mrsbear

    I think Jamie is swell and all, but he was wrong on this one. This is just the post we needed. Thanks for putting on your fearless leader pants and kicking some sense into our squishy asses. I’ll admit I have not been working as hard as I should have been. And I’ve let the little things derail me a bit, but I’m with you. You can do this, especially now that the sleep situation has improved, so get to Wii Fitting and Shredding. Now!

    mrsbears last blog post..When It Sneaks Up on You – HASAY Update

  14. Laufa

    Casey, I’m sorry that I have sucked!!! I think I am in hibernation mode. Wish I was there in FL. I think I need to take a break from HASAY, I know your thinking, well you already have. I think once we get well and life can actually go outside without getting frostbitten, it will be better. Is it ok if I re-join when I don’t have any more sad excuses? I will keep reading your blog, because I think you are a great bloggie friend. I’ll continue to be the cheerleader!!

    Laufas last blog post..HASAY Flop

  15. Petra a.k.a. The Wise (Young) Mommy

    Good for you calling it like it is! Good luck to everyone getting back on track!

    Petra a.k.a. The Wise (Young) Mommys last blog post..He Blogs, She Blogs: The Next Generation

  16. Sarah

    Great post and I’m not even a memeber but I feel the motivation dripping from this post and it rocks!!

    Good luck with your surgery!! Do you think they could give me some of your extra boobs? (Does it work that way or is that just more than a little gross and I just freaked you out? yeah I figured the second one too) : )

    Sarahs last blog post..Music Memory Monday

  17. cyndi

    Holy Cow – you are so right, and Jamie missed it this time. I’m a little constipated but ready to hit the pot this week…going to sign myself up with Mr. Linky, knowing I may be the biggest non-loser of the week. Thank you!

    cyndis last blog post..That’ll be my name spelt right

  18. cyndi

    Ooops, I forgot to say GL with the surgery – everyone I know who’s done it loves the results. And maybe Jamie was trying to de-harsh your view of yourself…lady, if you’re a fatASS, I will have to find another term to describe myself….

    cyndis last blog post..That’ll be my name spelt right

  19. Robin

    You can do it!!! Cheering you on! Woot! Woot!

    Robins last blog post..Musical Monday: Join the Fun!

  20. jen

    hey there …
    advice on the pop thing? don’t go half assed … just give it up. completely. the first two days suck. the first day i felt like a junkie … constantly looking around for where and how i could score myself a coke. the second day … caffeine withdrawal. the third day … i felt significantly better. then again … i still get a bit of caffeine with coffee in the morning. but i feel like, now, i could easily give that up too.
    hey … if you can kick my ass about the working out … i can kick a little ass about the soda pop. no?

    jens last blog post..TAP … TAP … is this thing on? … TAP …

  21. Peggy

    You HASAYers have got me hooked…Can I join at week 17? What is this Shred you all keep talking about?

    Saturday, I stareted training for a 5k…it’s my first foray into running so we shall see how it goes. I can barely walk right now and we only walked/ran for one hour! I am so out of shape!

    Peggys last blog post..Happy Birthday Littlest!

  22. Heather

    I actually had an easier time when my kids were little finding the time to work out..and making it a priority. I have no idea why it’s harder now…. I need to find some insperation Casey!!! Whatcha got??? Prizes would be cool…:)

    Heathers last blog post..Cleaning for no reason!!!

  23. Jonnny's Mommy

    Thanks Casey. This is exactly what I needed today. I was thinking something along this line…asking myself…what the heck is my problem and why am I not getting on track with this and losing some dang weight like I want to. I want to be attractive to my husband, around for my kid…dang it…I’m sick of it. Thanks for this swift kick in my flabby ass!

    Jonnny’s Mommys last blog post..Stress eating and a recovering toddler

  24. Sammanthia

    I’m sure this post was a tough one to write but I give you A LOT of credit for posting it and it sounds like this was just the thing to give everyone the motivation they needed… nicely done.
    I haven’t even thought about getting into shape (not seriously) and this post makes me want to run laps around my house.

    Sammanthias last blog post..Epic Mommy FAIL

  25. carrie

    Thanks, I need a kick in the arse. Yes, I ran on an injured foot but I have been eating crapolla for the last week. I am done I say, done with the crapolla food and plan on start running/biking today…..once my Doc approves it.

    carries last blog post..HASAY – Lowest Low to Highest High

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  27. Toni

    I hope that once I have the baby you are still running this because I want you as my captain!!!

    Tonis last blog post..Wordless Wednesday – Hunter help you

  28. Ali

    While I’m still on the wagon (and not to brag but totally rockin the wagon, I might add) I’ve been pretty sucky at visiting the HASAY peeps. I’ll be better at that!!!! Thanks for the sift kick in the behind Casey!

    Alis last blog post..HASAY: Week 18

  29. Rachel

    Actually, that was quite motivating. I haven’t joined HASAY because I suck at the willpower thing and it’s a lot more fun to only let myself down. But you’ve got me pondering. I think confessing to the world that I went to bed instead of getting on the Wii would shame me into hula hooping for all I’m worth. If only so many people from high school didn’t read my blog. I’ve carefully avoided letting them know just how much I’ve expanded since last they saw me. I don’t really want to regale them with pounds lost or gained. *sigh*

    Rachels last blog post..Spin Cycle: Counting the Change

  30. Kirst

    Didn’t mean to jump on and then fall off, promise to be back on board next week. Will save you the excuses and just tell you I’m ready to commit again.


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