November 24, 2008 7:00 am
Wow, we’ve made it six weeks already, great work guys! If you’re not sure what HASAY is, you can read all previous HASAY-related posts here. I haven’t been my usual stalky self this week since I’ve got two sick kids to tend to and they don’t appreciate Mommy stalking on the computer when they need attention in real life.
I did hold up my end of the exercise bargain this week, doing my exercise video and lugging around two heavy kids. This week is Thanksgiving so as the HASAY warden, I’m declaring Thursday HASAY FREE! That’s right folks, feel free to eat your asses off without the fear of me coming after you. Even you Canadian weirdos can cheat on Thursday, it’s only fair. On Friday, it’s back on so make Thursday count. I figure we’re all in this together and it collectively sucks to have to stick to a strict diet on Thanksgiving. One day isn’t going to kill us, right? Have a great time with family and friends and keep the drama to a minimum if you can. We’ll meet up next week to get back on track.
Today’s guest post is from Lindsay at Rock and Roll Mama. I have only known Lindsay for a little while, she stumbled over from Steenky Stalker’s site and I’m glad to have her. From what I’ve seen so far, she’s pretty kickass!
In some ways, I feel like I’ve been an invisible member of HASAY- I slack off putting up updates because I’m mortified that I’m in this position, again. I know it’s stupid, I know beating myself up doesn’t help the fact that I have exactly 2 pairs of pants to my name that will fit.
You see, this isn’t the first time I’ve looked in the mirror and decided something has to change. In fact, like most women in America who aren’t blessed with supermodel genes, it’s like the eleventy twentieth. But the part that really irks me about this time is that…I already did it. After my third baby was born, 2.5 years ago, I went on Weight Watchers. I started when he was six months old, and I lost 35 pounds. It took a year. I went to meetings, I weighed in, I worked out. I told myself it wasn’t a diet, it was a lifestyle. I made that utopian goal, Lifetime, after maintaining my goal weight for six weeks. I rejoiced, I was a single number size, which I have never, ever been in my adult life.
Then slowly, stealthily. almost unnoticeably, the pounds began to come back on. Pants were a little tighter- well, it’s that time, I told myself. Or, well, it’s Fall. People always gain a few pounds around the Fall. Also, around this time I lost my best friend to a betrayal of trust. There was an integrity issue that would not allow me to carry on our friendship…so my calorie counting conscience, workout buddy, and comrade who had lost 60 pounds to my 35 was no longer in the picture. I know, I know, I can’t blame someone else. But in distancing myself from that friendship, I did find myself turning to food quite a bit, and thinking how we would have NEVER gone out to eat four Krispy Kremes together. But I could do it by myself- because “the kids” like them.
So this time around, I weigh two pounds less then I did the last time I started Weight Watchers. There’s no baby to blame it on…unless it’s the one whose Daddys are named Ben and Jerry. It makes me so, so mad at myself that I let it get to this point-again.
But at some point, that becomes counterproductive. No matter how much I want to stick my lip out and say, “No fair, I already did this,”
clearly I already undid it too. So right now I’m working on consistency. Consistency of habits, consistency of thoughts, consistency of exercise. It’s hard, because I want a quick fix. I want to wake up tomorrow and have all my clothes that only fit me for three months fit me again. I managed to get myself on the Elliptical last
night- that’s my goal for this week, cardio every day, and weights 3
times- and I had my little Ipod shuffle on. I heard one of my favorite songs, Fugazi’s “Waiting Room”, from the classic 13 songs. And it gave me hope- it made me remember that this is not brain surgery.
Sometimes, you just put one foot in front of the other, and stop thinking about how you FEEL, and, as the Nike folks say, just do it.
So I’m trying. Here’s what Waiting Room says:
But I won’t sit idly by
I’m planning a big surprise
I’m gonna fight
For what I want to be
And I won’t make the same mistakes
(Because I know)
Because I know how much time that wastes (And function) Function is the key Inside the waiting room
I can’t tell you how much I appreciate knowing that you all are here, fighting your battles in your way. ROCK ON. We can do this.
And now, the contestants. Check out Leslie from Captain Crazy, she’s new this week! Also, please stop by and encourage everyone else. Leave them alone if you catch them cheating on Thanksgiving, they have a free pass…
Leslie at Captain Crazy MONDAY UPDATE here.
Christy from Heavy On The Caffeine
Kimberly (Sheildmaiden) from Dispatches From The Northern Outpost Monday Update here and Friday update here.
Keely from The Un-MOM
Lisa from Boondock RamblingsTUESDAY UPDATE here.
Kristy at Mommy in Pink
Ali over at Aloicious: Life in the SLC MONDAY UPDATE here.
Jen at Coconut Belly
Kat at Mother Fonker
Heidi at The World According To Heidi
Kiki from Kiki’s Corner
Lindsay at Rock and Roll Mama
Laufa from Morgan Madness MONDAY update here.
DeeMarie from My Life In A Nutshell
Carrie from Colepack Sunday update here.
Cellobella from Redsultana MONDAY UPDATE here.
Jenboglass from Steenky BeeMONDAY UPDATE here.
Jen from Sprite’s Keeper Monday UPDATE here.
Heather from Geez Louize!!!MONDAY UPDATE here.
Mrs Bear from Outnumbered Two To One MONDAY UPDATE here.
Debbie from Buzzin By … With Thoughts On The Fly MONDAY UPDATE here.
Beth from Drastic Measures MONDAY UPDATE here.
Elisa from Fairy Flutters MONDAY UPDATE here.
AnonyMOM from Simply AnonyMOM
Brenda from Seriously Mama
Cape Cod Gal from Diamond in the Rough